By Yvette Harding —
Driven to know what lay beyond the tomb, Becky Haag wanted to die.
“I was miserable. I was depressed. I was suicidal,” she says. “I wanted to die because I wanted to know what was going to happen when I died so bad that I was just like, Take me now so I can just go ahead and know. It was eating me alive.”
Becky’s spinout was the natural progression for a girl who grew up “Christian” but didn’t know God. She turned to New Age to create her own happiness but eventually despaired and searched for truth.
Becky Haag belonged to a Christian family. She didn’t know what that meant though.
When she struggled with depression in high school, she thought going to church would be the fix. It wasn’t.
Next she tried New Age. Enticed by the illusion that you can “manifest” your own reality, she looked forward to wealth, fame and a perfect husband. She became proficient at Tarot card reading.
Since psychedelics are related to New Age because you “open your third eye,” she began taking drug trips.
“I started to see the world completely different,” she says. “I would experience things in new things that I should have never known or seen.”
Still she wasn’t happy. She threw herself into New Age-related “shadow work,” seeking wholeness from hidden repressing, shame, anger, envy, fear, trauma or desires.
It wasn’t working.
She was still in high school and started to get bothered by the New Age notion that each person has her own truth. “I wanted to know what the truth was,” she remembers. “Is there an objective morality? Most people on Earth would say murder is wrong murder is bad. But why? Where does that come from? How do we know that murder is bad because what if somebody else thinks that it’s not? Are they correct just because that’s their truth?”
She dug into philosophy, thinking the great minds throughout history could illuminate her mind.
Just when she gave up (and thought she would never know truth), she came across a social media influencer who formerly was into New Age and psychedelics and then had an encounter with Christ.
It bugged Becky. She had left Christianity for the higher consciousness in New Age.
Still, she could shake the girl’s testimony. She reached out to another influencer who’s testimony she heard, and this girl got back to her. She agreed to a phone call.
Becky brought a list of objections on a piece of paper as to why Christianity was stupid and Jesus didn’t make sense. She would certainly cross-examine the influencer.
“But as she started speaking and telling me her story and telling me what the Bible says and telling me the Gospel is,” Becky recalls. “Those questions dropped out of my mind instantly, and I was taken aback. It was as if her voice went away and the voice of God was speaking directly to me clearly. I knew that Jesus was real. She didn’t have to convince me. I just knew it. I felt it I had a revelation.”
Becky accepted Christ right before going to college. She has grown in the Lord through her campus Christian group. She no longer despairs to know what’s on the other side of the grave. She confidently knows and expects to meet Jesus — though she’s no longer in a hurry to get there.
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