By Buddy Beachey –
As an atheist, Brush Brammer acknowledged no moral code, so he got addicted to pornography, watching it three times a day. He knew no purpose, so he lived for money, to the point that he didn’t even give his sister gifts to save money.
“Life was pointless, there was no meaning to anything because there’s no greater purpose,” he says on his YouTube.
Brush was raised in a believing family, but all he caught was to avoid Hell. At 16, he decided faith was all delusion and he renounced Christianity. At family gatherings when show me the weight of those sins I want to be convicted of my sins athe talked about God, Brush brushed it off: “These people are crazy.”
He graduated college and started a job. He was into making money and set up a YouTube channel about wealth – the same channel he uses today to talk about God.
As he drank deeply of the sins of the world, he even came to believe he was bisexual because he watched gay porn.
After seven years, the non-stop selfishness and pointlessness that marked his life eventually led him to an existential depression.
His sister recommended a podcast. The guy was a pastor in Texas who had once been an atheist addicted to porn. “I was like, whoa that’s cool,” he remembers. “I don’t believe believe it. I don’t
get it. But it resonated with me and because it was similar to my story.”
When he went home that night that in his categorical rejection of Christianity, he had never given faith a fair shake. He hadn’t ever bothered to read the scriptures. So he decided to at least read some Bible and opened to Mark.
After mocking Christianity for so long, frankly, he felt embarrassed to read the Bible.
Still, he plowed ahead. Trying to give it a fair shake, he prayed: “If there’s something, will you reveal yourself to me or will you enlighten something to me while I’m reading.”
He reached Mark 4. Just two weeks earlier, he had written a song about reaping what you sow. He hadn’t realized the phrase comes from the Bible. When he stumbled across it in Mark 4, it struck him.
“Wow, that’s weird. OK, so that is cool,” he thought. “I was like wow, maybe there’s something there.”
He kept reading and continued to listen to Christian podcasts.
One day in his kitchen, he asked God: “Show me the weight of my sins. I want to be convicted of my sins.”
He was doing dishes at the time.
“The second I prayed that, I fell on the ground crying, weeping,” he tells. “I could not even move. I was on the ground for probably 20 minutes. God in that moment revealed himself to me; his Spirit entered my soul. That’s the moment I believe I was saved through Jesus Christ through the grace of God.
“I was on the ground crying, and I finally I understood what sin was,” he adds. “I understood that I had been turning my back against God and that he constantly was trying to love me.”
Transformation happened.
“From that moment of crying I’ve never had an addiction to pornography, to sex, to alcohol or marijuana since,” he says. “I’m not lying.”
He began to tell his friends about what he experienced. One by one, they are getting saved. One girl believed she was god. Another guy was ashamed to go to church because of watching pornography.
God has been using him to bring salvation to others. He’s not afraid of any blowback he might get for walking back his atheism.
The universe has laws and order. Obviously, there is a Creator he brought fractals, beauty and order to the universe.
“The spirit of God entered my soul, it saved me,” Brush says. “It changed everything that day, my entire mind was renewed. It was like I opened my eyes and I had woken up in The Matrix for the first time. I could see sin. I could understand what sin truly was sin.”
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